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I was at work today, being my normal friendly self, when I rang up a girl from Germany. I was just making the usual tourist small talk like, How long have you been in San Francisco? How do you like it? Etc. Etc. I learned that she was the same age as me, 21, and she has been in the United States for about 4 months traveling all around America, alone. I asked her if it she ever felt not safe being alone, but she said not really. I was surprised when she told me her age and I said that I was very jealous of her. She said I should do it as well, travel around my own country. Before she left I told her that she was really lucky.

I think that I used the wrong word. I didn't even know her, yet I said she was lucky. As if her being able to travel was due to luck and my inability to travel due to my own bad luck. How do I know that she didn't have to give up something to travel for four months. Or maybe she been saving up since she was a little kid. It was my own spite that lightning-fast labeled her as lucky. Saying that seemed to reassure me, make me feel more compliant with everything. Like how some people find $20 on the ground, I just wasn't that person. But then, during the rest of my shift I kept thinking that luck has nothing to do with it. If I want to fucking travel all over the place, I can fucking do that.

So on the bus ride back, I figured out my future. A future that has been added to growing list of "Possible Futures For Jacob." Just crossed off that list was "Get into JET and live in Japan until I can't renew contract." This new one is pretty simple. Stay in SF after graduation, keep internship @ NJAHS, save money by 1: living in cheaper place 2: have two jobs, get out of debt, get tesol/tefl certificate, keep studying Japanese and Chinese, learn Korean. I figure I'd do this for a while. I guess all the way up until I'm doing what I want to do.