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Sorry but this post will not have any pictures. Because of finals and stuff, I haven't been taking any pictures or doing anything really. I haven't been on facebook for over a week, so you can rest assured that I'm being serious mom. It will probably also be very boring to read as I'm just going to ramble on about myself.

Ummm, I've just been thinking about how the 16 year-old Jacob would react if he saw the 21 year-old Jacob now. I no longer find the taste to beer to be repulsive and I can stand drinking coffee, if there's a shitload of milk and sugar in it. Those used to be the two things that I could never stand putting in my mouth. I paid my $712.50 a month rent by myself for a whole year. On top of that, I pay almost $200 in bills. I have credit history, thanks to my two credit cards. I eat vegetables. I'm $12,000 in debt from student loans. Loans that I took out with out a cosigner. Sometimes, I have so many things to remember that I need to carry a little book with me everywhere I do. I fricking traveled to somewhere other than Las Vegas or California, the only two places that I had ever been to before. Went to Japan by myself. I keep up with the news. I read books! I like my major and what I'm learning. I have a Japanese and Asian Studies minor and I really wanted to minor in Philosophy. I graduate in a year. I'm 21 man.

I'm not just trying to blow smoke up my ass but 5 years ago, I never thought I'd be doing what I do now. I feel so old but not really. I never thought about the future and stuff like that. Right now, I have no idea what I want to be doing 5 years from today. Is that good or bad? I have things that I want to do though, I don't care if I do it in 5 or more years from now. Once, me and kevin, took a bus from LA to SF and I was staring out the window the whole 7 or something hours. There was so much space out there. I had never seen so much vastness before. Now, I someday hope to drive cross country, preferably on a motorcycle. Going to Japan, changed my life. Now I want to travel all around the world. All the things that I have learned, not only history but like Japanese, I want to make use of it. If everyone knew and understood a little bit more history and why things are the way they are, I feel like things would be so much more better. Being able to understand and communicate with who use a different language is so cool. Now I want to learn Korean and French (sorry grandma, not tagalog. is that even what she speaks?! i have no idea.)

I feel like all this ambition that I have now, does have a negative side. I'm so surprised at what I do now because before I had no idea what I'd be doing. But now that I have some kind of idea I guess, it sucks to think that I won't be able to do some, maybe all, of the things that I want to do. Know what I mean?

I'm still really disappointed in myself for now throwing up every time that I drink beer or coffee. But hey man, I still read manga and like anime, even though it's a little embarrassing. I'm still amazed by clouds. Saying penis (any variation) or farting is still hilarious. I get nervous around pretty girls. I'm only 21 brah!