Recently, I've been eating out a lot; at least once a day. I don't even remember whens the last time that we bought groceries. Hopefully Kevin's onmma and oppa can help us out with that. Even though I've been eating out way more, my wallet hasn't been suffering as much as I thought it would. Ever since I began this paying for rent by myself thing I've always been worrying about making next months rent or buying groceries, but so far it hasn't been that bad. I kind of see paying for my rent as a double edged sword. On one hand, I don't feel like a kid in that I now have this huge responsibility to take care of. I was talking to some dudes at work and I have always thought that everyone, or at least a majority of the people there, was working to pay bills. I came to find out that even though some people there work 30-40 hours a week (I work around 20-24), they really don't have to pay any bills or anything like that. They're still supported by their parents and such. I was surprised and I asked them what they spend their money on and the stock answer was going out; clubs, beer, drugs, shit like that. Besides tuition, my parents pay for my cell phone bill. And I don't want to sound like a dick or anything but it kind of made me feel good because I can say that I pay my own rent and groceries and shit. The shitty aspect of it all is wondering if I'll have to be working like this all my life. I've come to the conclusion that, no shit I'll have to keep working but its just the kind of work that I'll be doing that worries me. I've come to realize that until I retire, I will basically be working; contributing to society somehow. How do people chose their jobs? Do more people chose their jobs because their interested in the field or it is simply to make money? I kind of feel that by choosing to major in History and not a more lucrative major such as business or marketing shows how kiddish I am. Off the top of my head, if I were the list what I wanted to be when I was little they'd be: scientist, archaeologist, paleontologist, and to have my own ramen restaurant/skate store. I wanted to be those things because thats what I was super into at the time. When you were a kid, you didn't aspire to be a corporate executive or oil tycoon. But if you did, parents or whoevers who say things like "money isn't everything" and shit like that. Eventually, one learns that money is super important. I swear, every time I tell people my major I get, "Oh. What are you going to do with that?" Is it bad that I chose my major because I seriously wanted to learn and understand things more instead of choosing a major that would make me a ton of money? I mean, what is the purpose of college and higher education? Is it simply to make more money so that later on in life one can life comfortably? Or is it to actually LEARN? And hopefully, one can apply what one learns in college into a field that pays well. When I graduate with my BA in History with an emphasis in Asia and my two minors of Japanese and Asian Studies what the fuck will I do. I feel like to live comfortably in this society one must find a balance between salary and interest. But shit man, education is, I feel, one of the most underpaid careers. And how do I know if I even like teaching? I like to learn but teaching? I don't know. So anyways, I have thoroughly digressed off of what I was talking about earlier. man. . . fuck me.
(Another thing that I've been thinking about was if other people think about things like this. Or like, if they thing about anything really in depth. I never used to think about things like this in high school. I don't know. It'd be cool if I could converse with someone instead of talking to myself. Soooo...I'm a taurus and I'm from Hawaii and I love Japanee food and blah blah blah blah. hahhaahha. Isn't it cool when, without the influence of anyone, you can make yourself smile? Also, how lame am I? Very lame? Not very? aaaaahhh whateever no one reads this shit.)
Hey, that's a great point on the whole education thing. I mean, you're right to ask: what, really, is the point of schooling? To learn, or to be assured of making money? I suppose that making lots of money requires learning, but it's more of a "training," in a sense. It's like this: to obtain prospect A (big salary), you must first go through four years of B (memorization and passing grades). I'm not saying there's anything wrong with training for something that you want to do; I'm simply wondering what is the pursuit of knowledge if only an obstacle to money? And, for those wanting to learn, how much must they sacrifice one placed in the mold of expectations and usefulness created by the job market. It's like you say: "a balance between salary and interest," should be sought. I think the best we can do is study what we like to, cause that is what is going to be the medium for old cliché of 'learning how to learn.'
ReplyDeleteIt's a tough subject, and I just though I'd let you know that I worry about similar things sometimes, you know?
“Education is not the filling of the pail, but the lighting of the Fire” - William Butler Yeats