Passion Fruit

I think my heart is racing. Maybe it's because I just came back from a horror/zombie movie and I rarely watch scary movies as I do not know how to not vocalize what I think as some idiot puts his face too close to window (I can't stfu). But I think it has more to do with this Adbusters article.

The Coming Barbarism

Adbusters isn't a periodicals that I read regularly. To be honest, I'm kind of put off/intimidated by how counter-culture it is. Put off/intimidated in that I know that I would never be able to whole heartedly believe in what they say. I agree with them and wish I could, but I know that I will never be able to do it. It's just really hard for me to be anit-consumerist and exercise my rights as a citizen of a democratic society, so I don't even try. Or at least, I don't consciously try. I'm not a Captain Planet villain. Saying that, whenever I do read an Adbusters' article, I eat that shit up. I am super easy to influence and when you're speaking about something as passionately as they in do Adbusters, I will support you 1000%.

It basically says that the future, Generation Y, my generation, has to potential to fuck shit up. Due to the economic recession and the reality of uncertain futures (and other stuff), "we are the greatest threat to capitalist civilization." So hmmm, where should I start. . .

I am the youngest person at my internship and I regularly converse with the other elderly staff members. Two of them would be considered "baby boomers" and were super into all that 60's and 70's stuff. Well anyways I don't know how we got to this subject, but both of them apologized for how shitty everything is now. It was strange for me to hear such a sincere apology from an older person. They were saying how they fought for civil rights and equality when they were younger, but they leave with their kids, who are already adults, needing to go back to school to learn a new vocation. They said how when they were younger, if they ever lost a job, there was always another one waiting for them, but now there are just none. How actually owning the land that their house was on was an actual possibility, but according to the Michael Moore movie on capitalism, it'll almost be impossible for me to do that (don't ask why, it just is.)

I have a lot of thoughts what the effects of the recession will be but I have none about what to do now in the mean time. I dunno. Like I never really went to school for a career, I just wanted to learn more about stuff. So now that I'm graduating and there aren't any jobs, it's not like I'm super bummed or anything. I just don't know what to do. "storm and occupy whatever political and economic space"? I dunno, maybe I'll post some more about this later.

I read the article and became impassioned but what do I do?